Saturday, March 24, 2007
Help me, O Lord, to make a true use of all disappointments and calamities in
this life, in such a way that they may unite my heart more closely with you.
Cause them to separate my affections from worldly things and inspire my soul
with more vigor in the pursuit of true happiness.
- Susanna Wesley from "Alive
Now!" March/April 1992
I took the boys to see the Power Team last night here in town. I admit, I don't really get it, but these guys have been doing this for more than 30 years and they drew quite a crowd. And in that crowd, I'm sure there was someone who needed to hear their message of salvation. Plus, they break stuff! It was a nice night out with my sons.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Meet Coco, our lovely little beagle!
Honestly, I'm not sure how beagle she is, but she's certainly mostly beagle.
She's very good-natured. We took a family walk not long after we got her home and then she and I took another shorter walk later. She cuddled on the couch with me and watched "Criminal Minds" last night and then hopped up in bed with Jason and I last night and snuggled up there. I'm sure she misses her family some, but she seems to be acclimating to ours well enough right now. She and the cats still need to work some stuff out (like them not hissing at her and her not chasing them!), but for the most part, I think it's going to be a good fit.
One more pic before work and then I'm outta' here. Have a blessed day!
Friday, March 16, 2007
I know that God is ultimately in control and He can work all things together for His good and that in times like this, I must put my full trust in Him (and I don't think I'm anywhere near the crisis of faith this time that I was a year and a bit ago), but it is helpful to know that there are those both IRL and virtually who are standing beside me, holding me when I'm going through this valley. Your prayers are deeply appreciated.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
I'm making it to work and doing the basic stuff necessary for my family, but honestly, since the last time I posted, that's about it. We're attending a different church right now and are involved in a Bible study there, but honestly, it all feels pretty empty. Very, very unfinished.
I'm seeing Bill again, and I hope that will help. I'm also going to be seeing my GP and having a check up there, just to make sure there's nothing out of whack physically that might make this horrible feeling worse, but mostly I think I'm just really hurt by what happened. Bill wants me to call Rich & Sharon to try to gain some sense of closure about the whole thing, so I'm doing that. Eventually.
This has been (sometimes for real and sometimes just as a hope) my "theme song" for the past 6+ weeks. I'll try to write more soon, but did want to let people know that I'm still around. May God hold you fast today as well.
God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can’t climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You
God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me
‘Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
‘Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now